I stood before David Bowie's iconic music video "Boys Keep Swinging" at the V&A exhibition, lost in his bold dance moves, sharp suits, and androgynous swagger. The year was 2011, and I had just come out as a lesbian, only to find myself questioning my own identity.
At that moment, something shifted within me. I identified with the drag performers in Bowie's video – their discomfort, their frustration, their yearning for freedom from societal expectations. And then, something unexpected happened. One of them ripped off his wig, smudged his lipstick, and revealed himself to be David Bowie. It was a moment that stunned me into recognition.
I realized that I too wanted to shed my societal skin and become someone else – or rather, embody the masculine energy I had been living in. But I knew it wouldn't be easy; transitioning would require courage, vulnerability, and acceptance from those around me.
For years, I hid behind the mask of masculinity, afraid to take the next step towards self-discovery. I cut my hair, changed my clothes, and even altered my name and pronouns – but deep down, I was still uncertain about who I truly was.
Then came the David Bowie Is exhibition in Brooklyn five years later. As I stood before that same video, something clicked inside me. The message on screen, "Boys keep swinging, boys always work it out," resonated deeply within me. It wasn't my clothes or makeup that made me feel trapped; it was my body.
In that moment, I knew I had to take the leap and start my transition. I booked a doctor's appointment, took a deep breath, and embarked on a journey of self-discovery.
It wasn't easy – there were fears, doubts, and moments of uncertainty. But ultimately, nothing came from trying to be something I was not. As I continue to navigate this new chapter in my life, I've come to understand that the freedom to play with gender, like Bowie did, is mine to reclaim.
Today, I'm proud to say that I am a masculine man who has been living in drag his whole life – and it's liberating to finally be true to myself.
At that moment, something shifted within me. I identified with the drag performers in Bowie's video – their discomfort, their frustration, their yearning for freedom from societal expectations. And then, something unexpected happened. One of them ripped off his wig, smudged his lipstick, and revealed himself to be David Bowie. It was a moment that stunned me into recognition.
I realized that I too wanted to shed my societal skin and become someone else – or rather, embody the masculine energy I had been living in. But I knew it wouldn't be easy; transitioning would require courage, vulnerability, and acceptance from those around me.
For years, I hid behind the mask of masculinity, afraid to take the next step towards self-discovery. I cut my hair, changed my clothes, and even altered my name and pronouns – but deep down, I was still uncertain about who I truly was.
Then came the David Bowie Is exhibition in Brooklyn five years later. As I stood before that same video, something clicked inside me. The message on screen, "Boys keep swinging, boys always work it out," resonated deeply within me. It wasn't my clothes or makeup that made me feel trapped; it was my body.
In that moment, I knew I had to take the leap and start my transition. I booked a doctor's appointment, took a deep breath, and embarked on a journey of self-discovery.
It wasn't easy – there were fears, doubts, and moments of uncertainty. But ultimately, nothing came from trying to be something I was not. As I continue to navigate this new chapter in my life, I've come to understand that the freedom to play with gender, like Bowie did, is mine to reclaim.
Today, I'm proud to say that I am a masculine man who has been living in drag his whole life – and it's liberating to finally be true to myself.