I feel bad for him, he's got some serious regrets about his career path 
. Can you imagine having to live with knowing you cheated your way to success? 
He's right, though - T20 is a whole different beast, and it's crazy how much money players can make just for a few days of play 
. It's like, what even is the point of all that stress and pressure? 
I wish more players would speak out about the pressures of competitive sports, it's a real mental health issue 